Monday, December 29, 2008

The Rebel Jesus


All the streets are filled with laughter and light,
And the music of the season,
And the merchants windows are all bright,
With the faces of the children.
And the families hurrying to their homes,
As the sky darkens and freezes.
Theyll be gathering around the hearths and tales,
Giving thanks for all gods graces,
And the birth of the rebel Jesus.

Well they call him by the prince of peace,
And they call him by the savior,
And they pray to him upon the seas,
And in every bold endeavor.
As they fill his churches with their pride and gold,
And their faith in him increases.
But theyve turned the nature that I worshipped in,
From a temple to a robbers den,
In the words of the rebel Jesus.

We guard our world with locks and guns,
And we guard our fine possessions,
And once a year when christmas comes,
We give to our relations.
And perhaps we give a little to the poor,
If the generosity should seize us,
But if any one of us should interfere,
In the business of why they are poor,
They get the same as the rebel Jesus.

But please forgive me if I seem,
To take the tone of judgement.
For Ive no wish to come between,
This day and your enjoyment.
In this life of hardship and of earthly toil,
We have need for anything that frees us.
So I bid you pleasure,
And I bid you cheer,
From a heathen and a pagan,
On the side of the rebel Jesus.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas!

Blessings in Christ =)

Saturday, November 29, 2008

I'm home.

and I found treasure while I was there

of a kind I'll never lose.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Where's Katie?


I'm in Rockaway this week for Thanksgiving with my family =) I'll be back for the Black Friday game night at the Foundry.
Hope you have an amazing, beautiful Thanksgiving!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Surrounded

Surrounded - Various Artists

Just listen to it :-)
It's what I listened to last night to fall asleep. Beautiful =)

To turn off the embeded music, scroll to the controls at the bottom.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Melting down for reforming


Lots of changes going on. God's doing some new work. It's exciting in some ways, but mostly painful as He's melting me down to reform. So prayer would be appreciated. Thanks :-)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

The War of the Coats!


It has begun!!!

The yearly battle of the coats.
We wear them, they get soaked, and mysteriously cannot seeem to find their way back into the closet.

When I was little, no matter how many times my mom would say, 'put your coat in the closet,' we would argue that it was too wet and would get the other clothes wet as well. We were then allowed to put them on the doorknob until they were deemed dry enough to join their peers.

Well, this left us an easy loophole when it came to keeping track of our coats. We would lay them on the bench or doorknob to 'dry' and somehow, no one ever put them truly away... they went from laying on the bench, to on us, to the closet doorknob, to on us, to anywhere but the closet and then we'd wear them again.

This dance has continued every year since I was tiny, and now there are 6 people in our house-- the armies have grown on both sides.

More coats. More people fighting the battle. More excuses why the coats always seem to win.

Will it never end?!?!?!!!


=)hehe

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Friday, November 7, 2008

I can't be anything I'm not- you get what you see


Basically-

Can I come close to you
Hold your heart and never move
I'll never move

Well I can't be anything I'm not
You get what you see
But I'm gonna give you everything I got
I'm not living in the in-between
I'm not living in the in-between

Can I walk right next to you
And never stop, I'll be the proof
I'll be the proof

Well I can't be anything I'm not
You get what you see
But I'm gonna give you everything I got
I'm not living in the in-between
I'm not living in the in-between

Look up, look up it's like the sky is falling
Down on us, on us
Wake up, Wake up it's just this dream I have
It's made for us, for us

Well I can't be anything I'm not
You get what you see
But I'm gonna give you everything I got
I'm not living in the in-between
I'm not living in the in-between


-Bebo Norman

Monday, November 3, 2008

Myspace bulletin I found


Make a wish......
No, say a prayer.
Put the first letter of every word of what you want to say in succession.
I'm not going to promise it'll come true, that's up to God's plans for you. But here's the place to think through what you want, why you want it, and if you think that would be part of God's plan for your life. Sort of line up priorities and bring them to God.

example:
I wish I could move to a new house = IWICMTANH

Blessings!

Dear God.....
IWICMD,
IWTMMWLH,
IWTWCBTF.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

This Is Home


Where is home?
I've been thinking about this for a while. I don't really feel 'at home,' I've been feeling sort of displaced and uneasy. Not that my home isn't amazing, and my family beautiful, I think I feel about as 'at home' where I am as I ever will. I'm at peace with where I am- I know it's where I'm supposed to be and I'm headed in the right direction toward where I will be.

But it's like being on a long trip, you're comfortable with where you are, but know you'll find home someday.

I'm starting to read the book Living in Two Worlds by Mary Trenney, after it was suggested to me by someone who knew I'd been contemplating on this.

You hear Christians all the time talking about how this isn't their home, how they can't be in the world.....it's cliche and half true. This isn't our home, but we are in the world. When I let myself listen to what God is whispering to me without trying to interupt Him ;-) He often reminds me of that- don't be too comfortable, but acclimate, become relevant, reach out relationally, but know that you aren't staying.... this isn't your hometown.

There Will Be A Day - Jeremy Camp
I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you`ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don`t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that`s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life`s sting

But i hold on to this hope and the promise that he brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we`ll see jesus face to face
But until that day, we`ll hold on to you always

I can`t wait until that day where the very one i`ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that i`ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why i sing.

It's a beautiful thought. It gives hope, peace, and helps us understand our unease with the dealings of the world.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Seasons


Ebb and flow, constant change. The past is dying and whirling toward the ground in brilliant colors that give tribute to the role it played in who I'm becoming.

Life is like its seasons. Continual death and growth, anger and love, sorrow and joy. Every choice, good and bad- like a leaf, fall in unique colors. They are in the past and have fulfilled their purpose in my life. Then life takes a winter to rest and be ready to give nutrients to and nurture the next seasons' folliage.

But in death life is celebrated- it's beauty serenades us with the smell of decay and marvelous hues, reminding us of the song we are playing... where we were and where we're going.

God gives us seasons, springtime and harvest, in their time. He clothes us with new attitudes and purpose every spring.

Yet as the leaves, the outer things which clothe us, die- the trunk remains. Who we are doesn't change. Our roots are still in the ground, our branches still brush the sky and we can still house a nest or two. We may also hold onto some leaves. They are never celebrated but turn brown leaving us looking dead.

There's a balance in the flow of it in God's plan, never lingering longer than we should, but not jumping forward into a new season we aren't prepared for.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

This Week


... has been the best thing that has ever happened to my sister and I. We've always gotten along pretty well for two girls of such an age difference who live and work in such close proximity could. But this week, my parents went to Bend for 4 days 3 nights. Aubs and I watched the kids- I in charge, she helping.

We got along amazingly... in fact we did better than get along, we had fun together. Singing and catching each others' phrases and making up songs. Playing games and tagteaming to keep the boys and house in one happy piece :-)
I think it was that there wasn't the stress of needing things done in a certain order or time that didn't fit the needs of the current time. We had a list of what needed to be accomplished daily, and were able to work together to make sure that was done.

Now mom and dad are back. And Aubrey and I just stopped and looked at each other, realizing that this week was amazing. It was fun, and the stress was good stress =)


On a different note- went to the Berg today for the QM photoshoot =D that was amazingly fun. Got around with Aimee, was in a bazillion pictures- funny and 'serious.' and now they are all swingdancing downtown... I couldn't go, but I'll go dancing with them sometime soon =)

Well, its a marvelous night for a moondance
With the stars up above in your eyes
A fantabulous night to make romance
neath the cover of october skies
And all the leaves on the trees are falling
To the sound of the breezes that blow
And Im trying to please to the calling
Of your heart-strings that play soft and low
And all the nights magic seems to whisper and hush
And all the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush
-Moondance by Van Morrison

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Pirate party

Monday, October 6, 2008

The Way I See It #27



"Do not kiss your children so they will kiss you back but so they will kiss their children, and their children’s children."

-- Noah benShea, Poet, philosopher and author of Jacob the Baker, Jacob’s Journey and Remember This My Children.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

update


-Classes are in full swing now, love my teachers.

-Ministry is beautiful, I can't stop thinking about it. I keep feeling prodded to focus there more, that since it's my life it should have some more focused time =)

-And I love my weekly trips to Newberg. There is such a peace in it. Beautiful =)


On another note- I've found a new form of exercise.... dancing. I used to dance a lot, took ballet and hebrew dance and did some clogging on my own, but it's been a while. So I started watching this show on fit tv called Shimmy... yeah it's belly dancing, but it's really fun! Especially if I'm just doing it with my sister- I don't know if I could do it in a class with other people ;-) the official costumes are beautiful, but a bit much for me.... or too little if you know what I mean :-) lol

Friday, September 26, 2008

phone is dead- in half


In half type dead.
It was at Case's jogathon. A kindergartener stepped on it. It's in half. Obviously. The bottom half still calls. The person on the other end can hear me, but I can't hear them or know if/when they answer. I'll keep it in my car for 911 emergencies until I get a new one :-P

I'll be getting another one soon, new or used, basic or intermediate tech. Until then, facebook, email, home phone to reach me :-)

Thanks!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

today


I've been cleaning my room today. Almost all day. and it's still a mess. but now it's an organized mess ;-) yeah, I pulled everything out and sorted it all, but am too tired to put it all away right now. that'll have to wait :-)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Focus


Some say- focus on your future.
Some try- to get you to relive the past so you won't repeat it.

Such opposites that are both on the other end of what is meant to be..... (a three sided line?! hehe)

I've found the best way to be true to your past and who you've become, and be true to your future and what God has for you is to live today. Now. Doing whatever God wants me to now. Ready for whatever He wants me to do in the future, built upon everything He's put in my past.

I'm so happy right now. God's doing some amazing things. I'm not sure where He's headed with it all, but whatever happens I'm excited =D

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Pay Him forward

So...
A lot of you have probably heard of or seen the movie Pay It Forward. Great movie :-) With the basic idea that you:

-Do something to help three people, something they can't do themselves.
-Then in turn they do not pay you back, but pay it forward to three more people.

(preview and movie not appropriate for young children)


Well, our youth group is paying Him forward. We are looking for three people over the next two weeks that we can help and speak into their lives. Maybe share Christ with them verbally, but most importantly be Christ's hands for them. Touch their lives, so that they can in turn touch more people.

It's a challenge that we are going to take seriously and celebrate.

Thursday, September 18, 2008


Sleep well tonight children for
Aslan is on the move.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Today


Praying.....
Wishing.....
Wondering...
Hoping......
Learning....
Sharing.....

The church planters conference today was a good resource =) Met lots of people from the Portland area that are doing similar things, and got to listen to the pastor from Imago Dei speak on Preaching to transform today's culture. I'm glad I went.
Had my meeting with the lead pastor about my goals for the ministry and job description. That went really well, got some insight on the vision for the rest of the church and how what the kids and youth are doing fits into the larger picture :-)
I've only heard back from about half of the people I contacted for the college group- I'd love to hear from you! Which day(s) would work the best to get together? I'm thinking the third Sunday from now, but let me know what works for you all =) anyone college-age etc is welcome to join us and bring a friend if they want to.
I'm working on the storyboard for my next movie. Live action this time. Let me know if you'd like to help with it =)
Alright, I'm headed to bed now. Time to get some reading done :-P hehe

and I go to sleep
Wishing.....

Friday, September 12, 2008

Cook park tonight!

Headed to Cook park for church tonight! Feel free to join us =) we'll meet at the new pavillion around 6.

Thursday, September 4, 2008


I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
I want a new beginning
One without an end
I feel it inside
Calling out to me

CHORUS
It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful(Yeah Yeah)
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Somethings beautiful

I've heard it in the silence
Seen it on a face
I've felt it in a long hour
Like a sweet embrace
I know this is true
It's calling out to me

REPEAT CHORUS


BRIDGE
It's the child on her wedding day
It's the daddy that gives her away
Something beautiful
When we laugh so hard we cry
Oh the love between you and I
Something beautiful

REPEAT CHORUS

REPEAT BRIDGE

Something beautiful

Something Beautiful- Newsboys



I love this song- and I got the idea to post it from hanging out with the Big Boss of the Quaker Mafia :-) hehe

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Transparency


Why can't we be transparent? Live in a glass house? What's so scary about that?

A pastor friend was telling me the other day that I give away too much of myself. That I should 'hold my cards closer' until I know people, otherwise I would get hurt.

Why can't we just live our lives so that there isn't anything to hide? Yeah, we make mistakes, but why can't we just own up to them? Be honest, move on, gain and give trust?

I'm not talking utopian here. Not at all. I'm talking personal sincerity and transparency. If you believe that who you are is the best you can be, then why not be proud of it? If you aren't proud of it, then become what you can be proud of.

God makes everything happen for a reason. Everything that was hard in our lives can be used to help someone else- but if we don't allow people to see who we are, then how are they to trust us, how are we to help them? Our pasts are to build on. To grow on, good or bad, God can use it all- if we let go of it.

When you build a wall, you aren't stronger- you're covering up a weakness. Hiding a weak spot from view won't make you stronger. It just hides it from your view and blocks that part of your heart from true life.

When you open up, you have the possibility of getting hurt. It's happened to me before, I've been called a whore for hanging with people who have that rep. Jesus hung with people- prostitutes and sharp dealers, to show them God's love. That doesn't make Him a prostitute. It made Him vulnerable in the world's eyes, but strong in God. Strong in spirit, heart and soul.

Yes, others may try to hurt me when I am open and honest. When you expose your heart it's open to puncture, but God is my armor. If I do what He asks, live as He asks, then He'll protect me or keep me through whatever happens.

That is my goal- to be vulnerable in the world's eyes, but truly strong. To be truly transparent so that God's love can shine through me wherever I go, doing whatever He asks me to do.




PS- that's one of the reasons I'm so smitten.... transparency, trust, God working through a person. It's a beautiful thing ;-) God-given

Saturday, August 30, 2008

For the day


I'm headed to my hometown for the day. Going to church, hanging with a friend =D ( ;-] yay!) watching movies. For part of a day.

Just for the day,
I'll be home again.
Then back to the way,
My life is spent.

God brought me north,
To serve Him my best.
Yet I find great worth,
In heading Southwest.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Adventuring =)

lunch check. brothers? check. books and music? check. buckled? check.
OFF WE GO! :-)







Well, we're back from our adventure. We went to the Beaverton fountains, played, got wet, ate lunch, went to Cedar Hills Starbucks and made our way home =) Case was too fast to get any closeups :-( whereas JM got cold and sat with me, so he was in lots of pics :P hehe, they're cute goofballs... I'm a little partial to them =)

Adventure!


Today I'm taking the day off of hw and church buisness to take the boys and Aubrey on an adventure while mom's at her doctoral advance. We are packing a picnic lunch and extra clothes, and headed to the Beaverton fountain to play then to another park to eat. I think we are going to end up at the library or grandma's.... not sure about that yet =)

but SHhhhhhh- they don't know what we are doing ;-)

I have my cell with me if you need to reach me today- I'll post the pics tonight =D


Oh! and I'm trying to plan a beach trip if anyone's interested :-) let me know!

Monday, August 25, 2008

verse of the day

"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 4:19

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Verse O' the Day =)

"Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."

1 Thessalonians 5:18

from Air1.com

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Change of plans


"I've commanded you to be strong and brave. Don't ever be afraid or discouraged! I am the LORD your God, and I will be there to help you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9 CEV

This has been 'my verse' for a while now and the reason for my tatoo. But I was looking at it again today with new eyes.

I've always thought of it as- each person has a different calling, and God is with them all, whatever He asks them to do. Which is true for sure. But today I was looking at it in terms of my own life.

Right now I'm working in a new church with kids and teens, going to school... all of that. I know God's called me here right now, no doubt. But what about a year from now? When I have my associates, the church is functional, and I'm 20 1/2?

I have a friend who's going to drop all, pick up, and go to Kenya with a mission group for 6 months starting in Nov. In a way I envy him, I almost went to Africa myself, then said- ya' know God, I think I'll wait on that until I'm old enough for it to count.

I rather regret that. Even though I know I'm where God planned for me to be right now, I wish I'd had more of a heart at the time.

It could still happen though. I don't know what the next year holds, and God said He'd be with me WHEREVER I go. Africa. Europe. S.America. or even right here.

My life plan has always been:
-finish college
-get a job
-get married
-do whatever God wants with my life

But I was just thinking today how skewed that is!
Doing what God wants came last... like the rest was prep to be ready to. But He said wherever, and whenever. Right where I am.
I mean, He already changed that up a bit- I'm already working as a pastor, (by His grace alone that is,) and college is going well alongside it as I've worked off and on.

He's changed my plans in so many ways to fit His, it's only a shadow of the original thought- but I wouldn't have it any other way :-)

I'm just super excited as I notice how I need to open up my plans a little. Or a lot. .... yeah a lot. =)

Monday, August 11, 2008

God is...


amazing =)

Thank you Father for all you're doing. For all you are. For all you've made. You've made some amazing people, and I thank you for bringing such people into this world and for who they are. I don't deserve any of these blessings, and I want to shout and sing with how excited I am about everything you are doing! I don't think I've ever been so happy Lord. I want to know what you're up to, yet I don't because I know I'm not supposed to yet. It's like you've set Christmas presents out really early and I have to just think about it and be patient. I pray for that patience. I don't want to jump ahead of your plan and cause disappointment. I want what you have set forward in your plan, nothing more or less. Please give me patience. Give us patience. To wait on you.
Please speak to us of what you've planned so that we can follow you. Keep my heart open to what you would say.
I love you Lord.

Amen


That's the North Star. in the upper left and the glow on the bottom right is from the moon :-)

Sunday, August 10, 2008

excited


Today.... is amazing. Tomorrow will be too. God's here, He's working. I'm just excited.

Sorry that my posts have been so short, I'll write more soon =)


and if you've never been out to the trappist abbey- it's amazing =) A great place to go and spend some time with God, walk around, let Him lead you :-)

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Sleep Now



Sleep, dear friend,
As night pulls in,
The day doth end,
And rest begin.

Lay down your head,
And find that peace,
With nothing to dread,
As thoughts now cease.

I wish you sweet dreams,
Of beauty and love,
Full to the seams,
Of peace from above.

Lay them down,
Lay rest emotions.
Release your frown,
And your time's devotion.

It all has gone,
Slipped with the light.
So all that is wrong,
God will make right.

I watch your eyes close,
A flutter so light.
Now in repose,
As stars fill the night.

Take on His peace,
He knows what will be.
If your brow doth crease,
I'll set it free.


- To a friend :-)

Smitten


But kinda like:

and:

If that makes any sense whatsoever =)

Let me tell you~ God is amazing... and I love seeing Him work through people! It's like taking a breath of fresh air :)

I've just got to keep praying, because branching out within my own wants can't do anyone any good. But I know He has something awesome in store!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Gone



In Bend for the weekend- back Tuesday evening, available Wednesday =)

Have a great weekend!

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