This Is Home

Where is home?
I've been thinking about this for a while. I don't really feel 'at home,' I've been feeling sort of displaced and uneasy. Not that my home isn't amazing, and my family beautiful, I think I feel about as 'at home' where I am as I ever will. I'm at peace with where I am- I know it's where I'm supposed to be and I'm headed in the right direction toward where I will be.

But it's like being on a long trip, you're comfortable with where you are, but know you'll find home someday.

I'm starting to read the book Living in Two Worlds by Mary Trenney, after it was suggested to me by someone who knew I'd been contemplating on this.

You hear Christians all the time talking about how this isn't their home, how they can't be in the world.....it's cliche and half true. This isn't our home, but we are in the world. When I let myself listen to what God is whispering to me without trying to interupt Him ;-) He often reminds me of that- don't be too comfortable, but acclimate, become relevant, reach out relationally, but know that you aren't staying.... this isn't your hometown.

There Will Be A Day - Jeremy Camp
I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you`ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don`t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that`s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life`s sting

But i hold on to this hope and the promise that he brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we`ll see jesus face to face
But until that day, we`ll hold on to you always

I can`t wait until that day where the very one i`ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that i`ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why i sing.

It's a beautiful thought. It gives hope, peace, and helps us understand our unease with the dealings of the world.